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A mirage called fitness

I have been dealing with weight issues my whole life. I had been a healthy weight only about thrice in my life. 

I had been to the UK on work and I saw people of all kinds, like back home. People who were morbidly obese, overweight and skinny. But I also saw men and women who were committed to their diet, fitness programs and jogging groups. It was the first time I ever saw people actually jogging in the snow. I mean up-close. And they would wear these clothes that athletes wear on sprints. Maybe their jog would actual work up a sweat after a mile or two but come on, in the snow?

I was amazed at my colleagues at this organisation. They would come cycling to work and they had their biking gear on and everything. They would change into work attire afterwards, and come evening, they would promptly change back to biking gear and head off into the horizon…:D

I was walking more too when I was there. I had to catch the free company shuttle about 1.5 Miles from my boarding. And the house was on a high hill. When I got back I was about 10kg lighter. But it didn’t take long for me to regain that weight.

I jeopardize my own fitness regime for reasons unknown. It’s as if I don’t like being thin…which I do, I want to be able to go to a party not wondering if people are talking about my weight, I want to be able to shop for outfits that fit me, I want to have a flat tummy without having to hide it with my dupatta. Sometimes the way I procrastinate the day’s regime makes me wonder if I am my own worst enemy. I wonder if I found myself a buddy who is going through the same I would find myself back on the wagon. But I don’t know anyone who is. Self-motivation is proving hard to come by.

Nonetheless, I am not giving up. I have been sick for a few days now. I have been using the elliptical and doing the Surya Namaskar and other Yoga Asanas, on and off these past couple of years after getting back from the UK. But now, I have pledged I will get in better shape. Let’s see if I can keep this up.

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